One thing I do want to improve on in the next year is lose that defensiveness and not take criticism (good or bad) so personal. I need to watch how I say things because wanting some one to hear me shouldn't mean I need to make sarcastic mean remarks to get that attention. I want to believe more in myself when it comes to "smartness". Just because I am not intelligent in one area doesn't make me an imbecile. While I enjoy my addiction to books and blogging I need to find a healthy activity as well...I would like to live another 36 years, and all. I want to be a better person...to myself and others. My biggest goal in the next year is going to be trying to get a piece of writing published. I have these amazing kids in my life already, and maybe that's what I should be focusing on. Whether I have kids or not - or get married or not - I'm leaving up to fate. I have tried my part the last seven years and I feel good with the decisions I have made - good or bad. I can't wish someone to love me and see the potential in me. I can't love someone enough for the both of us. I also won't let someone be the yardstick to which I am measured against.
I am still nervous and anxious about it all, but with a great group of people behind me...I know I won't stumble too far.
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