Wednesday, 26 October 2016

Enough is Enough, Kris!



Today I had lunch with my cousin and I told her everything about my relationship with Derek.  I have told her things in the past, but tried to always keep Derek in a positive light.  As I started writing about my relationship in this blog I have come to realize I was still hiding.  By talking to everyone I was talking to no one.  I could not be held accountable for my feelings for Derek.  Hearing my cousin, who is my best friend and greatest supporter, say to me that he is horrible for me and my light hit me a bit.  My cousin, no matter what I choose in life supports me, but has stayed mum on the topic of Derek and my relationship. I could see her eyes welling up a bit when she told me she read my blog posts and I deserve so much better than this.  He has hurt me in every way possible.  He has done many things even I cannot admit it to myself.  I have cared for him, supported him (mentally, emotionally and financially) and put myself second.  Unfortunately, he has not done that for me.  He has not factored me into his thinking process and how we will live our lives together. I am the one that has to plan and yet, I don't have the power in our relationship.  Soooooo, my caring readers, don't worry I will still fight to get my loan payment paid back by Derek, but I am letting go.  Enough is enough.  I hope his mistress turned girlfriend, if she is real, has better luck with him and his mother.  She is another pawn in this game.  I wish her all the best and hope she can help him be a better man or escape without too many scars.

Cue Adele...

Just the guitar. OK, cool.

This was all you, none of it me
You put your hands on, on my body and told me
Mmm
You told me you were ready
For the big one, for the big jump
I'd be your last love everlasting you and me
Mmm
That was what you told me
I'm giving you up
I've forgiven it all
You set me free
Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We've gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain't kids no more
Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We've gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain't kids no more
I was too strong, you were trembling
You couldn't handle the hot heat rising (rising)
Mmm
Baby I'm still rising
I was running, you were walking
You couldn't keep up, you were falling down (down)
Mmm
Mmm there's only one way down
I'm giving you up
I've forgiven it all
You set me free, oh
Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain't kids no more
Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We've gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain't kids no more
If you're ready, if you're ready
If you're ready, I'm ready
If you're ready, if you're ready
We both know we ain't kids no more
No, we ain't kids no more
I'm giving you up
I've forgiven it all
You set me free
Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We've gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain't kids no more
Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We've gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain't kids no more
If you're ready, if you're ready (send my love to your new lover)
If you're ready, I'm ready (treat her better)
We've gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain't kids no more
If you're ready, if you're ready (send my love to your new lover)
If you're ready, I am ready (treat her better)
We've gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain't kids no more
 
 
Written by Adele Adkins, Johan Schuster, Max Martin • Copyright © Universal Music Publishing Group
 
Off to book club...more on book club later :)
 
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